I recently moved from my suburban apartment to an apartment downtown in the city. Its really close to all the happenings here in town and I have always wanted to live in a city. Plus I figured the chance of meeting a guy would be easier in a place where everyone is more progressive, and less redneck. haha. So far I have chatted with a few guys on Grindr but nothing too major.
Until last night. This guys chatted me and asked if I wanted to come over. I usually would have said no, but for some reason I really just wanted to go out on a limb and see what it would be like. He only lived a few blocks away and I stupidly went. I got to his place and he let me in the building. I tried to make some small talk about his apartment and how nice his place was and all he wanted to do was get me into his room. Which was the ultimate reason for my visit, but conversation never killed anyone. We went to his room and started kissing. We ended up just messing around for a bit and sucking some D.lol. That was all we did but it wasn't for a lack of him trying.
One of the weirdest things I have ever seen was when he came he would lift his right hand above his head like he was a bull rider....I just stared at him. I have watched some porn in my life, I mean I am a 24 year old virgin, and I have never seen anything like that.haha
He was really insistent that I fuck him. He asked, I told him no. He asked again and I asked if he had condoms, he said "maybe". We messed around for a few again and then he told me to "do him" (this is a little weird for me to write so excuse any awkward language.haha) I told him no I didn't want to and he told me just to stick it in... I said no again. He got off again. YEEHAW. And then we were laying there and he wanted to cuddle. I told him I would stay for awhile. And just kept moving around and he started to run his finger across my face.
I left.
Went home. Blocked him. Cleaned up. Went to bed regretting my decision to go over. I guess I am glad that I took a step I just wish it would have turned out better. I really wasn't that attracted to him nor did I feel a connection so I found myself disconnected from the situation and staring off during the whole thing.
I know I managed to make this into a random ramble but I wanted to share.
Also I think I received the toothiest blow job ever!! haha.
No more random hookups, dates only for this guy.
haha those happen and im sure everyone has had there fair share of 'regrettable' hookups, (i know i have) but anyways, congrats on your new place!
ReplyDeleteDude, long time to talk but I'm glad that your confidence is growing! Hope that everything else is well, and I know you'll find someone. :D
ReplyDeleteRejoice, man!! Good judgement comes from bad decisions! You are on the way! The way we all learn -- if we learn!
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