Or so I was informed recently at my bar. This guy was talking about how good of a lay he was to the only other person in the bar, who was a lady. He was upset that he got dumped and spent a few hours getting wasted and talking himself up to feel better about himself. Anyway he said he was a good lay and the lady said she hadn't heard that and jokingly asked if I knew that he was good. I just laughed and said don't involve me in this and then the guy said that he wasn't gay like he thought I was. Then the lady (who is a regular at the bar) said "Chris isn't gay!!!" And the guy said he was joking. But I was just glad that other people have me figured out.........
I guess at least all the work I have put into being "straight" has paid off. I would be pissed if people looked at me and said oh he's gay after all the shit I go through to try and assimilate with the masses. I guess it will make all the funner if I ever come out to the people around here, not that I think I will because I see no benefit, everyone is narrow minded and none of them know any gay dudes so I see no gain for myself....
Friday, January 27, 2012
relationships
I have been thinking a lot lately about relationships and how I get along with people. I have been told numerous times from a lot of friends that I am one of the easiest people to get along with. And I really try to get along with everyone and am usually the one who does what I can to keep people happy. My issue is that I don't know for sure how I would handle a relationship with a guy. After I have been friends with someone for a while I usually get tired of them or stuff that they do all time starts to annoy me. The only friends I really still consider friends and still like are all people that I do not see on a regular basis. I usually want to punch my roommate Lea in the face, I have known her for 5 years and considered her my best friend for most of that time, but now the only reason I talk to her is because I live and work with her. I usually only hang out with her because its comfortable, if that makes sense. I now consider my best friend to be U who I have seen for 5 minutes since the first week of December.
I guess my first issue is that I don't know how to talk to a guy just to see where it goes. I have always kind of avoided relationships because I was never really attracted to girls and grew up in a town of 1000 people. I have talked to a few guys on Grindr but I never know where to take it so the conversation dies pretty quickly.
I guess the moral of the story is that I don't know if I can handle a long term relationship, which I really want but I can't seem to stand people that long. I don't want to tolerate someone I want to want to be around them and be happy when I am....Maybe I just don't know that right people? And I am definetly not a hook up kind of guy so thats not an option.lol
I am off of work today, first day not having to work since the 8th of this month so I am going to catch up on some posting. Thanks for reading and thanks for commenting if you want..
I guess my first issue is that I don't know how to talk to a guy just to see where it goes. I have always kind of avoided relationships because I was never really attracted to girls and grew up in a town of 1000 people. I have talked to a few guys on Grindr but I never know where to take it so the conversation dies pretty quickly.
I guess the moral of the story is that I don't know if I can handle a long term relationship, which I really want but I can't seem to stand people that long. I don't want to tolerate someone I want to want to be around them and be happy when I am....Maybe I just don't know that right people? And I am definetly not a hook up kind of guy so thats not an option.lol
I am off of work today, first day not having to work since the 8th of this month so I am going to catch up on some posting. Thanks for reading and thanks for commenting if you want..
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Who here has a facebook?? Better question who the hell doesn't? I wanted to talk about some slightly weird/creepy things that I have the pleasure of being involved in on facebook. In the past I have talked about a lady from work trying to set me up with her daughter. Well through bad luck her daughter now works at the same place as us. She talks to me pretty often and tries to get flirty with me and expects the same back, I can tell by the look on her face when I don't play into it. Anyway I want to share her facebook status from a couple weeks ago: A***** M**** all my exes are failures at life.. cough cough no
names for the main one but your different and no wonder why
your not my ex. im glad to call you my boyfriend (:
When I saw this I didn't think much of it, I guess I was glad that she found a guy to date and would maybe leave me alone a little. Couldn't have been more wrong. At work I overheard one of her friends go over to her and ask why she didn't tell her she had a new boyfriend. and A.M said she really didn't and then her mother said that it was about me and A.M told her to shut up cause I was standing close and could hear them......
Apparently when I purposely avoid conversing or really even seeing you that is a hint that we are somehow dating and needs shared on the internet.... Not that I haven't ever read too much into things, as I am sure I am with U, but I don't write about it on the internet.....oh wait.haha.....on a place like facebook where mutual friends and U himself can read it. facebook incident number 2 is less creepy and more of just weird for me. As you remember on NYE I ended up hanging out with 2 gay guys. Well gay guy #2 apparently though I was "cute" enough to facebook about. This isn't necessarily a bad thing, its actually kind of flattering, but given the source I would rather it not happen. I'm sure this guy isn't a bad person or anything, he is just part of the gay community that I try to distance myself from. I don't remember what I told before but I will describe a little bit again. He likes to wear make-up and dress up in girls clothes and dance for guys online. On NYE he was dancing at the house party, alone, like a stripper. My friend told me about his facebook update regarding me so I went to look for him and couldn't find him...because on facebook he doesn't go by his name he goes by a girls name that is close to him......just not things that I like and things that in my opinion give the gay guys as whole a semi-negative image and stereotype that is obviously not all inclusive and hard for people to see around. I am not trying to piss anyone off thats just what I see and my perspective.
names for the main one but your different and no wonder why
your not my ex. im glad to call you my boyfriend (:
When I saw this I didn't think much of it, I guess I was glad that she found a guy to date and would maybe leave me alone a little. Couldn't have been more wrong. At work I overheard one of her friends go over to her and ask why she didn't tell her she had a new boyfriend. and A.M said she really didn't and then her mother said that it was about me and A.M told her to shut up cause I was standing close and could hear them......
Apparently when I purposely avoid conversing or really even seeing you that is a hint that we are somehow dating and needs shared on the internet.... Not that I haven't ever read too much into things, as I am sure I am with U, but I don't write about it on the internet.....oh wait.haha.....on a place like facebook where mutual friends and U himself can read it. facebook incident number 2 is less creepy and more of just weird for me. As you remember on NYE I ended up hanging out with 2 gay guys. Well gay guy #2 apparently though I was "cute" enough to facebook about. This isn't necessarily a bad thing, its actually kind of flattering, but given the source I would rather it not happen. I'm sure this guy isn't a bad person or anything, he is just part of the gay community that I try to distance myself from. I don't remember what I told before but I will describe a little bit again. He likes to wear make-up and dress up in girls clothes and dance for guys online. On NYE he was dancing at the house party, alone, like a stripper. My friend told me about his facebook update regarding me so I went to look for him and couldn't find him...because on facebook he doesn't go by his name he goes by a girls name that is close to him......just not things that I like and things that in my opinion give the gay guys as whole a semi-negative image and stereotype that is obviously not all inclusive and hard for people to see around. I am not trying to piss anyone off thats just what I see and my perspective.
K*****........o how i love all of u guys and chris i gess since that was the first time i met him. pluse he was cute. :)
This is part of his status update, it was so long it took him the status and 2 comments to talk about the night..this is pretty much the only thing about me..like I said not bad just unwanted attention.
In other news I have yet to break a resolution! And I am writing this post on my laptop. I have had it for 6 years and It is about to shit out. It has taken me way to long to write this post and just trying to navigate with the mouse is shitty. So from here on out it will probably be all post from my iphone. I need to save up to buy a mac, I hear they are pretty sick, and I have had problems with PCs forever.
Hope you all have a good weekend enjoy and be safe!!!!!
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