Tuesday, June 26, 2012

too much work

At this point in time I should be doing my homework... but this seems much funner. I started a couple online summer classes a few weeks ago so I cold get in some credits and still work full time.. I have got to have the worst timing ever. We are doing our annual inventory at work and I have to fill in where needed when people call in so I am in the middle of a 17 day in a row stretch at work, I'll have had 4 days off this month. I have spent so much time at work I already fell behind in one of my classes. Not how I saw things starting off but I'm sure Ill be back on top of it soon.
I have also become increasingly more active in the last couple months. I did Warrior Dash a couple weeks ago and did relatively well. Placed in the top 1/3 out of almost 10,000 people, which I was happy with seeing as I had never run in any type of race. This past week through work I was in charge of putting together a group of us to do a couple legs of the "torch run" for the state games here. Kind of like the Olympic torch carry but with much less importance. haha. I ran a total of about 6 miles in 2 days, which is a lot for me. I don't know if I'd go so far as it was fun but I always love the sense of accomplishment I get after running a distance. I haven't played tennis or lifted in a couple weeks but am supposed to start with Jake again soon (more on that in a minute). I also got a soccer ball for my birthday a couple of weeks ago and am taking applications for a coach since I haven't played in a few(15) years. haha. It will take a pro
To go with that since August when I started my challenge to lose weight and get in shape I have lost 55lbs. I am pretty happy with the results thus far but I have kind of hit a plateau and really want to lose another 20lbs. When I look at pictures of how I used to look versus now its kind of disgusting.
On to the Jake issue. Since I wrote about him last we very rarely hang out and conversations are almost a little awkward. But not because I made a move on him or went to far, if that happened I would be ok with it.haha. Its actually because him and my roommate Lea have a thing now. Which I am 100% ok with but they have pretty much lied to me about the whole thing and snuck around my back. I know I sound like a bitchy cheerleader so let me explain. Jake would come over to my place to hangout and one night I went to bed because I had to work the next morning, and he stayed and watched TV with Lea. Soon he would text me to hangout and come over and then come over late and stay and hangout after I went to bed. So I felt like he was just using me just to get to hang out with her. After then I went on vacation came back and we lifted once and it was slightly awkward-much less muscle touching- and they both acted a little weird. Now he's at my place all the time with her and they go on walks and go driving around for a couple hours. Essentially they same things we used to do but with sex.haha. They are always playing footsie and wrestling and one night they passed out on the floor cuddling and then as soon as I went to my room they got up and went to hers. All those clues would lead me to believe they are hooking up, I think its pretty solid evidence. But the thing is neither one of them have came out and said anything to me and they both act really guilty and weird after he stays the night....So while I know I should jealous, I hate being lied to more than anything.
Whining complete. On a positive note I put in my 2 week notice at the bar. While I will miss the money I won't miss the people and their narrow-minded views I had to sit and listen to for hours at a time.
here are some summer pics


Saturday, June 2, 2012

Survey says......

This is a time that I am going to ask that everyone leave a comment. I only have 29 followers and probably a few non-followers who stop in and read. 5 people know that I like dudes. Lea, U, his fiancee, B, and the girl from the bar. B, U, and fiancee all live in other towns, none of which are close. Lea is not a person I have come to put much stock in when it comes to gay things and girl from bar I don't really talk to. So my question out of all of this is:
  Do I go out alone to meet guys??
I know I sound like a friendless introvert but I don't see the point in going out with people who don't know and trying to catch a dudes eye while avoiding the attention of the people I'm actually with.
I really want to go to downtown even if its alone just to be in the area of town where everyone goes out. But at the same time I don't want to be "that guy" who goes to the bar alone and sits there alone just drinking the night away. alone.
Yes the simple solution is to just tell all my friends and family I'm gay and live life....but shit isn't that easy and "happily ever after".
Let me know please! If I get enough responses soon maybe I'll try and savage the night.haha.

A couple off subject things. What happened to RJ? Maybe his life is just going so well he didn't to to vent, if so thats awesome.

#2. I cannot fucking wait for the College World Series in a few weeks. I have gone every year for the last 7 years and it is one of the funnest things ever. I highly recommend coming if your team makes the tourney, or if your just bored. There are also a lot of hot college dudes there to see their schools play, and it gets hot, and they get shirtless, and painted.haha
thats all, hope to get some comments. thanks