straight dude...

Once again I have fallen for a straight kid. I know, I know I shouldn't but I can't help it. Essentially all I need is a straight guy who likes penis. This kid, Jake, works with me and he recently started hanging out with our small group of now disbanded friends. We were talking about working out and he said he needed to start running, which I already do, and I needed to start lifting, which he already does. So we started working out together. Than we would just hang out a lot and we ended up spending a lot of time together. Now I am sure it is just me deep down desire to have a boyfriend that is reading into stuff too much, but this time I thought this kid was legitimately gay. I will now present the evidence for you all to come to a verdict.
Exhibit A: He wears a purple belt and on some days purple shoes to match....












Exhibit B: While working out he will come over and have me feel his muscles...

Exhibit C: One day we went out to eat and then went to a park and walked around the lake stopping and talking and taking pictures, for a few hours. It would be the perfect date in the future.

(there might have been a little 

less-no touching but you get the idea)

Those are the big ones that stick out in my head. He also has an exact count on not only the number of girls he's had sex with, but a narrowed down number on the actual number of occurrences, and he says he regrets each one.
I think in the past 3 weeks we have not, not hung out outside of work 2 days. Also one day he grabbed my phone to look something up and he opened up the Safari browser and towleroad was up. He said "why are you looking at this page" I asked "what page?" and he said "just kidding I wanted to see what you would say" and that was it.
He also jumped on my xbox to get on my netflix, where Brokeback Mountain is in my queue right on the front page. I don't think he is clueless I'm sure he just has no idea how to approach it. I want to tell him I'm gay anyway just because he has become such a good friend. And I also want to tell him that what I really want to do when I see him is grab his face and make out for 6 hours at a time....babysteps. Haha. I tried to really hard not to fall for him but come on, he's really fucking cute and...well he wears a purple belt.haha.
I guess thats it for now, just needed to get my thoughts out.
Anyone get to catch the solar eclipse last night?? I was doing P90x, which still kills right now.lol.
later

Equality

I know I am probably not going to find many opponents to my views on marriage equality reading my blog but its still something I want to talk about. Obviously 2 days ago North Carolina passed Amendment 1 which solidified the law in place to ban same sex marriage and not recognizing partnerships or unions of any kind from anywhere. That fucking sucks. It doesn't affect me here in Nebraska but for those who live in NC it blows. Than 1 day later Obama comes out for equality, which isn't some big political action, its just where he stands and I think where the Democratic party is going this year.
This statement will probably be interpreted in a couple ways but who cares. I think that there is always going to be problems with the fiscal side of the government. There is never going to be a time when the country unanimously looks at the budget and the deficit and says "hey, this looks good great job everybody"(sorry Paul Ryan fans). Thats just not how the system works, there will always be alienated and pissed of people trying to get what they want. Of course jobs and the economy are important, is the recovery slower than anyone would like to see, yes, but is it recovering, yes. It has always taken longer to build something up than it has to tear it down.
With that being said when I look at politics social issues are more important to me, barring some outrages shit on the fiscal side. Think of it like this, If I was told that I had 1 year to live would I want to spend it being as happy as possible trying to fix something that will arguably always be flawed and will somehow always continue to chug along anyways??? I am sorry if this makes no sense at all.
So in November I will be voting the same way I did 4 years ago, for Barack Obama. Not just because of his stance on gay marriage but I also agree with many of his foreign and fiscal policy stances. My vote will essentially not count based on where I live, which sucks because If I lived 10 miles further North than I would live in the district the Obama won 4 years ago when he split the state..
I just registered for classes for this summer, one of them being current social problems, I think I should do fine. Haha. That and all the news coverage had me thinking about all this.

__________________________________________________________________I also like to read the blog towleroad, if you don't you should, I feel somehow more connected to the gay world.. There was a video on there I watched this morning that was sad as fuck but it is an important reminder of why we need marriage rights.

later guys