religulous

Is actually a good movie.

Skip politics for now I want to talk about something else that I think about pretty often. Religion.

There has never been a time in my life that religion has played an important role. When I was little there was only 1 time I can remember going to church before we moved to Nebraska when I was 10. My mom took me and my brothers to a church that I had only seen in the movies. We went in and it started slow and church like, then everyone stood up and sang and clapped and danced around a little bit...it wasn't for my family. We didn't go to church again until we moved and then we only went because of family that also went and wanted up to go. I remember going to sunday school sitting there uninterested and feeling out of place. Its not like my parents were bad immoral people but with 3 kids the raise they both worked full time and church and religion were the last things on their minds. 

I have known since I was about 14 that I found God very hard to believe in. I remember once in 10th grade we were discussing evolution and I was asked in biology if I believed in evolution or creation, I responded that I believed in a combination of both,like God created a caveman like person who evolved into what we currently are today.

I am the type of person who needs to see something to put weight into it. I can not say with 100% certainty that God does not exist, just the same that no one can say with 100% certainty that he does. My problem with God is that I am expected to believe in something that has never been seen/photographed/proven to exist. When something bad happens the response is "it was Gods plan", or "God took him" when someone dies. And when something good happens it is "thank God" "this is all because of Jesus". It has nothing to do with all the practice and work some puts into something it has to do with what they do on Sunday mornings. If I accomplish something its because I did what I needed to do to get it done. If I fuck up and something bad happens or falls through then I know I need to try harder next time. 

Now the trouble with religion is the way that "christian" or "holy" people is the way that they act. There are ideals and values that they claim to live by and uphold yet some of them are the most hateful  disgusting people to walk the planet. 

***I am not denouncing anyone for what they believe, nor am I naive enough to think that every single religious person acts like this*** When I see stuff on tv or in the newspaper it really pisses me off and just turns me off to it more and more.

Please don't confuse my atheism with immorality. I consider myself a very moral person. I don't need any group or book to tell me what is right or wrong, I know is good and what is bad. And yes most of these are are social mores that are derived from the bible or religious teachings but I am not arguing that there aren't positives in religion. And of course the way that homosexuality is treated might have a little something to do with this. But anyway this is post I have thought about writing for a while and now it turned into a semi-rant and I contemplated deleting it but I just want to throw it out there so I can write other stuff.

Segue.

I had a wedding on Saturday that I was an usher in. This was the bachelor party that I went to last weekend and don't remember. It went really well and was a lot of fun. My tux ended up being a little bit big since I was fitted in November which was about 25lbs ago. It wasn't crazy big so it was ok. I also got drunk enough that I was dancing :\  which is something I never do. I have no problem slow dancing with a girl but I always take a seat during the fast songs cause I am white and have no rhythm. The best part was that I remember the entire wedding and reception. 

Here is my new drinking theme song:

I guess thats it for now, for the few of you who read this far in, thanks.ha. I plan on my next post being a draft of the email I will send to my mom to come out in cowardice because I can't to it face to face. And I'm tired of getting all emo when she talks to me on the phone and her constantly asking if everything is ok...........

well good night I guess